DRAMA WITH LOVE

 sHE 

tODAY... She said to me

I treated her like a dumb child every morning when and as  i was busy prepping for school. i replied by saying no. I EXPLAINED it was not to her but it was chaotic. the morning was chaotic. I was not intentionally treating her badly.. i was frowning as always.. late and distorted was my morning bread and jam. She was just around when it happen, hence the misunderstanding

well,.. this incident did bring me here, 

So here I am ... trying to save myself the stress of having to explain myself to someone who wouldn't just listen. Well, you would want to know why she had started this whole drama? well, it was because of a man. I had strictly forbid her from seeing for some very important reasons ( which I cannot disclosed here )....

 Here a little something I discover along my journey of handling this drama..

1. When you think you love someone, everyone else becomes your nemesis... the way that someone treated you nicely will somehow cause you to think that others around you.. others who have been in your life for quite some time, through thick and thins, harsh , bad and worst.... these people will appear as though have been treating you like crap. yes!! i know right? stupid isn't it? but it is the truth. psychologist haven't founded this basis yet but they soon will because lets face it, stupidity travels fast. 

That's all for now. Bye. 

# I may update soon... 

When I had Enough... I would rather..

Its almost sad
you shamed me on my convocation to the extend that i hate to look at the pictures...
You used me for money... you gave a new meaning to extortion
you mentally tie me up and emotionally bound me to follow in whatever you say
even to the most ridiculous
you paralyses me by limiting my movement and then u nag that i am not walking on my own
You give space.. but you doubt each second
you got angry for all the ridiculous reason
I used ridiculous twice in a sentence
though i constantly tell my students not to repeat the same word twice
but if not for that word...
 i would have said that you are unscrupulous, inconsiderate, petty, self centered snob
who wish nothing than to destroy your own flesh and blood .

When I had enough I would rather die but Dying would be worst...

Coz at least by living I can still count my chances of independence.

The Day a Teacher Cries

The title speaks for itself.
BLACK... the colour of grief suits the day
Filled with utter disappointment..
Since when did the students stoop so low.
We do not ask for gifts..
Hell, we do not ask for you to remember our day
Just Respect..
If respect is too much to offer
Then, spare us some humanity..
Out of shame , Out of guilt, Out of love...
Students now.. not to point to everyone of them
Why is it on this day..
You still are not listening to us..
Are we of no value to all of you
What if someday, we stop caring for you..
Will you notice us...
You are like our kids...
yet you treat us like your slave
Disrespect.. Under appreciated..
Know how it felt to be treated this way...
You 'll see..
When you do...
We would still be right here
For you
Because... Over everything
We are still Your stupid OLd teacher.
And above all You will always be Our Beloved student.

Do u know how hard it is to confess to a feeling that you have? 

It took a lot of courage to do it.

You will be questioning yourself 

The Bad had gone worst

Yesterday I fall from a chair...
How could someone had fallen from a chair? A chair???!
but I did... I had no idea what was in my mind that had drove me into such hole... LITERALLY

My whole body when from mid air to the ground.. rolling in dirt from a 5meter height.
Luckily, I sustained no injury.

Yesterdays's bad day goes from bad to worst TODAY.

I almost crashed with a car... me on my motorcycle on my way back from the school... the car stopped instantly before it reached my motorcycle.

It was fortunate of me.

I hope tomorrow.. things will get better.


p/s ... on a different note... why won't you reply my text? had I done something to offend u, I m sorry.

Drama Marathon reminded me so much of you

Guys can be really2 annoying sometimes.. They either too smart or just plain DUMB.
I don't know how girls put up with their attitude. It is almost like killing urself over and over again, and yet you never did, die... and yes.. you never stop trying  (to kill yourself)
Guys are just like a doctor's prescription of a very strong drug. Too much of it, you'll suffer... Too little of it, you'll crave.. so, it is better to just stay  away from them.

They are too much out of this world. Sharing everything with them can turn out to be amazing or it could be a disaster.. For example, shahring a facebook account. A girl could easily tell if the guy is entertaining his other friend without first replying her message.

## erkkk... too much of drama.. i felt the hibbi jibbies

The love that was lost ......