I'm done

It is really hard these days... to find a friend..
Real friends... I mean
Even harder to find humanity in a human being~
I cooked a meal for you, not asking you to repay me
but remember me sometimes , that will do,
I had my birthday alone,
you didn't bother
to be there with me
How sad, how gloomy
life is...without
a real friend

feeling emotional..
my fingers starts to bashed the keyboard
with words
that i seldom wrote

should i share or should i not
the story of four little birds

4 little birds was once friends
eagle, swallow , pigeon and a peacock
the swallow thought these was his world
so he joined forces and fly together
what it didn't know was that
they didn't feel the same
so it was shattered as they joined forces
and stab it in the back
why is that you may ask
It was all his fault.. too young and too foolish

just like Rome wasn't built in a day
Friendship wasn't built in months..
So the swallow left
Knowing that he only had his own kind to turn to when in need..

Then years passed by...

The swallow was getting used of the lonely life
He flew up high
in the vast blue sky
He ignored others comment
and He was  himself
free and wise
He grew older each day that pass

Soon, he stumble upon a tree
There lay an eagle whom was once his friend
He said hi and shared some stories
they noticed not..
how the minutes have passed
The eagle and the swallow grew closer
closer and closer
until they were friends again
The swallow was happy
The eagle seemed happy
The flew together
and ate together
play together
sleep together

two years have passed by...

they were still friends
Swallow however
grew tired of the eagle's wild and carnivorous act
Swallow's cousins and friends were eaten by the eagle
The eagle even asked for the swallow's meat
Being an incredible friend
The swallow cut a piece of her meat and give to the eagle
The eagle eat it without feeling any remorse or guilt
Then the eagle asked for her nest to laid in,
the swallow give way to the eagle
she sleep leaning towards a tree bark
Then the eagle kept asking
and the swallow kept giving
all in the name of friendship
then one day
Snap!!

The eagle went away...
The swallow was beaten and hurt
Friends are for dumb people, he said..
He live her carefree life.. friendless...thoughtless
but not heartless
He flew near and far
and met a butterfly
the butterfly was so small and always there when he needed it
but that was just in the very beginning
soon he realized
it was a friendship based on need
if he is alone then the swallow will have a friend to play with
if not.. then .... he is ignored

So the swallow
knowing that he couldn't possibly count on someone like that
flew away...higher and higher
further and farthest
until finally he met the pigeon
how beautiful
how wonderful
the pigeon
was as white as snow
at least that was how she looks like in the outside
in the inside..
how icky , how black, how tarnished her soul was
all because of the eagle, she said
the swallow thought the pigeon have come to stay
but soon she leave
as the swallow had nothing more to give

Back to being alone.. the swallow flew back to his family
torn and sad
disbelieved
swallow learnt a valuable lesson..

You can never find friends when there are none like you....
You may be willing, but others may not
So asked around, to those who wish,
If you didn't, then your heart might get broken

~THE END~



had you ask for my life, i would have given it.....
but why did you break the heart that helps me live..

I am no longer your friend and you are o longer mine..
I used to love you but now I hate you , I even hate the idea of friends

F is not for friend
F is for family.

Lovely LOVE

Love took all your senses,
corrupted your self-esteem..
Make you feel worthless,
demolish your joy,
give you nothing but pain,
strangle your soul,
causes you to go breathless,

finest girl, he said....
to hear such word from the one you love
to know the word was not meant for you..
will rip your soul open for a second or two...

You will be asking yourself...
Am I not fine enough?
How fine is finest???

Don't get me wrong
Listening to your story is timeless...
a joy to be in the life of
.....someone you love
.....someone you care

Dangling your heart for the sake of others
heartbreaking..
yes i know


broken!
once you realize..
lifting him to the moon ..
means giving love away to another

Soon you leave with no trace or sadness
leaving behind such happy faces
Bringing along the pins and needles
of broken dreams and broken hopes...

Stupid..
Oblivious he is, he will never notice you...
even when you are gone....
pity you.. pity you
you who never made a choice
you who give you time away for someone who didn't care

and

your line

 would be

I would suffice....

Story of my life # 1

I am still thinking of him... 

Sharing this story here with you who choose to read this post is better than sharing elsewhere...

I think I still love him...

I just hope , he will remember me,,,

Hope we have future together...

I don't want to day dream anymore...

I want to live the dream...

I want  to have what everyone crave for...... Happiness

And I want to share my life with someone who is deserving..

Let's increase the price... who wants to bid??? 

  

I wonder if I will think of him again tomorrow..

~Ver Que Cuando Te Veo~

The Race Starts Now,,,

By far the most challenging semester is this semester...
to fight all the emotional surge..
to withstand all the urge...
to complete all the work..
to get it done..
to FINISH

for a brand new ...

START

Mr White & Mrs White

Salam'alaik... It's already the sixth week of my semester. I have just realized that today is the BOLD & DARING Day. I have continuously tell what I feel to almost every person I met today. This is good... I think.. at least I won't have to live with the feeling bottled up inside me forever. I did not regret any of it.. it's just that I hope the results will turn out the opposite. It's hard to get rejected as much as it is harder to slit your heart wide open and let others see it. I was bold but silly. Can i ever compete with a lady-like princess. I don't intend to compete with any of that. I just hope that he will accept me and love me the way I am. It's hard.. I know... but it's hard for me too. I can never imagine mysself and mylife without u in it. I may be a significant others to you but you are much more to me. At least I just want to sit at the sideline and cheer for you and your happily ever after life.. I hope you will be happy... because it would be like watching a telenovela with happy ending... I will cry but with tears of joy. InsyaAllah. ps: Let's be BFF forever.. ;-) ~Ver Que Cuando Te Veo~